The Prelude

There will be a moment when I will express my deep love for my hometown. Heart in hand and breathless. Spilling secrets, giving advice on where to dine or using my universal language to articulate train directions. New Yorkers are kindhearted. The real New Yorkers! The center of the world raised me and I must do it justice. This is an introduction to my next level of growth, expanding my mind and increasing the net worth of my soul.

Its not that I have no words...I just have more to feel. More of a sense of where I'm from to where I would like to be. Art, travel, people, conversations and experiences that leave me with an orgasmic memory.

A moment of silence when life pushes you to move forward....

Here's a quote I would like to share from the final episode of "No Reservations" in Brooklyn, New York.

From my soulful virtual friend and fellow New Yorker...

Anthony Bourdain's final goodbye:

"It's been a wild ride. A lot of miles, a road sometimes smooth, sometimes hard and ugly. And I guess I could tell you that if you look hard enough, that just next door is just as interesting as the other side of the world, but that's not exactly true. If I do have any advice for anybody, any final thought, if I'm and advocate for anything, it's to move as far as you can, as much as you can, across the ocean or simply across the river. The extent to which you can walk in somebody else's shoes or at least eat their food, it's a plus for everybody. Open your mind, get up off the couch, MOVE!"



Love,
Acting and Apple Pie

Thank you for stopping by...

Reel Me In

Music mimics my movement in space. Every whole note, half note, quarter note, eighth note, sixteenth note, thirty-second note, sixty-fourth note moves my soul. I'm ready and able...

Sex Transmutation

Lust is not my truth.

Lying in bed for over five years with you.

This is... True Love.

Sliding, Climbing, Pushing…through tears and applause.

Going hungry to feed my soul.

The erotic side of passion enriched in my spirit.

Removing limits of physical vision.

Fake ones. Side eye observers. The grey-day-walking-prisoners in their own skin.

Starting over isn't easy. Especially when the rest of the world continues to rotate.

But here we are… Alchemy.

Every word filled with color. Every line bursting with emotion. Every scene built from truth!

In front or behind your lens…making me whole.

This is my truth.

(whispering in your ear) I can feel your love. 

xoxo

Acting and Apple Pie

Living Shadows

I live with your ghost... and all that was once good between us.

Sit and I will stare at your light. I will miss the smell of your skin when my mind wonders away from this thought. But when I come home to you...my mind is attuned with our quiet chats on everything and nothing. The cerebral key that unlocks the unknown. The whole world seems so small compared to the weight of this endless bonding feeling. Surpassing the boundaries of logic. The awe of what is and what evaporates... across the world suspended in the air. I live in you and you in me.

Pockets of love hidden in the clouds. Occasionally turn my head and quietly allow the rain to take over. Suffocating in my own thoughts...these are the moments I catch myself....falling deeper and deeper out the living. I must say farewell before the others notice my absence. It's too much all at once. No one can really live here otherwise the world would commit me... for I live on a thin line of insanity to keep you alive.

Time is merely the past, present and future. Time is merely... what was, what is and what will live on. Can you see... that sun shines on me too. Smile! The Universe watches over our floating footprints and gently guides us to the next journey. But I can always come back to you if I stop and stand still.

I live with your ghost... and all that was once good between us.

Love Always, 

Acting and Apple Pie 

The Audition

144 beats per min instead of the average 72

0.6875lbs never felt heavier

Headshot in hand

Slight left-side profile

Eye contact towards camera

Name...

Role...

Become...

2 days going over sides

45 mins on the train...getting into character

(Yep...people think I'm freshly out of Bellevue)

33 mins waiting on studio bench

Reliving why I exist

15 mins left to check myself

Breathing my character...

5 mins until they call my name

Existing in the now...

1 min to make a deep long lasting impression

In...

My being waits wide eye lingering in the air outside the door

Done...

Seeps back into my pores as I take a deep breath leaving the studio

Back to myself...

Ready to do it all over again!!!!


Love always,
Acting and Apple Pie

Dedicated to every artist that runs with their heart on their sleeve:)

The Daily Journey

Yes I get lost...

Lost in my head, lost in my space, lost in time.

I find myself living to the fullest when I am in love and living in another shoes. Walk the path of greatness or destruction. But all to teach...

I am an Actor...

With all its glorious moments are moments of "where to land next". Spinning until my world is as dizzy as me. I like to laugh and feel high on my "NOW" moments that make me whole.

At the end of the day... My happiness is all around me...

The seat that was given to me on train,
The Audition,
the final kiss out of 20 at the elevator,
the poetic words of the unfortunate that ask me for help,
The Callback,
kisses to the Sun,
the little girl across from me that smiled,
the sound of Boom Clap Bachelors Lob Stop Sta,
the smell of Egyptian musk,
howling at the Moon,
the toast to everlasting love,
the smell of freshly made apple pie,
On Set,
101 million toast to winning the lottery,
finding a vegan fast food joint,
the look in your eyes,
my rating from 1 to 10 every time the pilot lands the plane,
On Stage,
Finding the lyrics to Lob Stop Sta,
sweaty palms that hold mine, 
every "hello"
and
every "I'll see you tonight"...


There are a sea of reasons why I woke up this morning... I found happiness in being alive!!!!


Love Always,
Acting and Apple Pie

... Miles Away

....Nature Boy

The misty rain and I have a quite love affair. Every time moisture fills up the space in which I breathe...through a foggy window around the brownstone where I sleep. It gives me comfort, a kind of intimate expression from a higher nature. A picturesque scene of unused umbrellas... bluesy soundtracks of an inner love for one's thoughts. A moment to self-reflect on the most precious times in our lives... "The Now"

....I Thought About You

To Exist is to Love! When light enters the operatic sounds of your core... Everything falls in its natural place. Naturally what you think you become... Naturally what you love will love you... Naturally your passions overflow into a surplus of Epic Happiness.

....In A Sentimental Mood

The stroke of Midnight... A mystical intense pause in time...the savory well planned whipped organic freshness served from the eyes. Lingering sensations bursting!!! A refined palate soothing bones and elevating souls.

 ....Kind of Blue

I can still hear the sound of raindrops falling against the fire escape.


Love Always

Acting and Apple Pie

**snapping fingers**

Dedicated to the 15 rainy days in January